I’m Still Here

Have you ever been close to someone and then one day it’s almost like nothing actually happened? That’s what it has been like for me these past three years since being diagnosed with Interstitial Cystitis, Depression, Anxiety and Endometriosis.

Before I got sick,  I had a good social life. Hanging with friends, going to the park and acting like a kid, actually feeling good. After I got sick and my health got worse and worse, my social life slowly disappeared. Right along with my friends and family. No one wanted to hang out with a “Sick Girl’ who couldn’t do all the things they could. Going to parties, drinking, staying up all night and hanging out for hours at a time. Even my family started pulling away when I needed them most.

The phone calls and texts dwindled until they stopped all together. People stopped coming over and asking to hang out. My life which once consisted of friends, family, daily outings to the store and the park became doctor visits, many medications, severe side effects, sleeping all the time and feeling so sick I could barely get out of bed.

Over the past three years, I have been able to manage my pain as much as I can with the medications I take daily. My social life is still non existent  but I have managed to have a routine that keeps me busy so I don’t think too much about how my life has changed.

Do you know what the hardest part of all this is? It’s not that I don’t have any friends or that I rarely leave my house. The hardest part is my family. They have pushed me away and seem to think that because I “Didn’t have any health problems when I lived with them” That I am making all this up.

I’ll admit it. When I was younger and more immature than I am now, I would have made this up to get attention. But I have grown up and this is something I would never joke about. Chronic pain is nothing to joke about or push aside like it doesn’t matter.


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Author: Karley Linger
My name is Karley and I am a 23 year old Chronic Illness Blogger who suffers from Interstitial Cystitis, Endometriosis, Pelvic Floor Dyfunction, Anxiety and Depression.
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